why do i care?

so i must apologize for my last irrational post. i was upset.

but i'm still equally as frustrated, not so much angry as just frustrated. the day only got worse really.

i want to do a good job. i want to produce quality stuff. i want to be a part of a vision. a vision to do something more than the status quo. i want to shake things up. look at things from a different perspective.

my leadership does not understand these ideas and consistently chooses to not chase them. and often sabotages their staff.

i will never be happy there. i ask myself often if i made a mistake. i don't think that i did. i am more baffled at what to do next and trying to avoid looking back. i have ideas, i have dreams but i lack the skills, the money and free health insurance.

soon. just hang in there. life always works it's self out. it's odd that way.

and then i ask myself...why do i care so much? it's just a job, these are not my friends, i don't have to have an emotional attachment towards everything. but i do. i can't help it.

sigh.

photo stolen from here.