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warning: this post will consist of whining and online therapy so if you aren't in the mood - move along.
tonight i stopped by super target on the way home. my intention was to pick-up some organic apples and chicken italian sausage. what i ended up with was apples, sausage and a 6-pack of cupcakes. why you might ask because afterall i have had the bug for a good two weeks. well let me tell you - two things have prompted my cupcake failure. one my TOM (which i have recently figured out is blog code for the big P or the monthly visit). odd really. second, my husband. you see e is in NYC tonight playing a showcase. i'm a tad annoyed that he is there and i'm not but i realize i've been before and will be returning in approximately (see time above). so i'm cool with that. but i am frustrated because i tried to call him a couple of hours before to check-in and wish him luck. i can't be there physically but i want at least make an emotional attempt to be there. well, he didn't answer his phone and didn't return my phone call.
is this stupid? yes.
is there any reason that i should let something so petty completely mess with my emotions? no.
but it did.
so since i've recently had some counseling i've been trying to find the root of my responses. in this case, i'm sad - sad that i can't be there to share his experience. sad that i feel left out of things. sad that we are a part so much. just sad really.
i'm happy to report that i only ate one cupcake and honestly it wasn't as good as i anticipated. i am not tempted to eat another...tonight. i'm pondering what to do with them - throw them away or place them in a very public place at work tomorrow. and if i keep them around for tomorrow will one end up in my belly for breakfast? probably.
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