sigh.

i'm struggling today.  i seem to do ok for a couple of weeks and then i just get overwhelmed by this job stuff.  there are money issues that involve insurance, the future and the ability to pay my bills in the long-term.  and then there's the job search process which is just the most humbling experience possible.  send your resume...wait. get a call...wait.  go to an interview...wait.  all the while worrying and fretting if you will hear something and what you will do if you do.

actually i was talking to e about the interview process today and he compared it to trying on clothes...nothing ever feels quite right.  and then i decided it was like trying on bathing suits.  they might fit ok but then i start to overanalyze it, look at the hips, wish my boobs were bigger, beat myself up that i don't exercise more.  but in an interview it involves my answer about my previous employer, or the joke i made about al gore, or do i really want to work with five partners...it just goes on and on. 

all i'm saying is...it's tiring and i'm struggling this week.  it will pass. all will be well. 

i know that i just need stop worrying about it and put on my bathing suit and go swimming.