the end...

of an era. the era of being a state employee.

sigh.

it's almost like i've been reading a chapter of my life, a fairly unhappy, draining, will it ever end chapter...that just ended quickly. so quickly that i don't think my mind has caught up yet. and i am somewhat confused...i'm relieved, yet nervous. happy, yet disappointed.

disappointed that i couldn't be happy in a job that on paper looks wonderful. disappointed that i couldn't deal with the politics or red tape or the incredibly difficult co-worker and my response to it all. but i just couldn't.

and i wonder...will i ever be happy. e pointed out to me a few weeks back that it's possible i won't like any job...well great...isn't that encouraging and a happy thought for the primary money maker.

anyway, i feel disappointed and somewhat regretful...but not about my decision...maybe just the experience.

i'm typing this thinking...this makes no sense...sorry about the puzzle of thoughts.

anyway, it's the weekend. e's birthday is tomorrow. i'm off on monday and the new adventure starts on tuesday.

a new adventure that will take place 5 minutes from home and will involve lots of casual wear.

happy weekending.